soon enough i should change into the air and get the wooden desk because I’m too lazy putting it in my lap.
how hard and struggle it is to try? a lot! it consumes most of your energy and emotion. through decisions and caring! i am confused if I’m just stupid, has shitty personality or craving. but i definitely can’t explain what’s going through my mind at this moment. i look at the ceiling and i see nothing, either future or life. i expect way too much from people and i don’t see what is right next to me. what sucks more, i overthink stuff that i shouldn’t be. i assume things either if its right or wrong i still go saying ” probably doing that , this , those and more ” i should really stop. everything , just go to sleep and never wake up. because every time i open my eyes I’m either trying too hard or just plainly bored with my life.
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I’m just over and done trying. you want me to make all the effort to say sorry? to create conversation? to just even say hi? to even get your attention? no nigga I’m done, I am fucking done. you all pisses me off. and this is why i don’t go out most of the time and stay at my bedroom staring at the ceiling , because you know why? you all are piece of shit, my mouth is burning to just scream at all of your mother fucking faces and tell you that I’m freaking done with all the bullshit! I’m not a fucking nice person, i was never nice how come you know all this shit you still take advantage and thinks of me as a stupid little fucking kid? the hell bro! no bitch no, get you fucking damn fact straight. from now onwards YOU YOURSELF MAKE THE EFFORT , AND ILL GIVE MY 1% TO GIVE BACK. I’m turning off my shit and going to bed I’m not going to think of nobody and i will wake up like an alien who don’t give a zero fuck.
can i just take a moment to appreciate whoever took tho photo coz damn man i can call myself having a damn boner. like shit can he get any hotter than this? this isn’t rated pg man this is rated r.
it came to me. monkey face likes me but i like someone else. even when I’m talking to monkey face makes me think of the other person more, wanting him to be the one making me smile and laugh. it sucks i can see me being with him but he doesn’t see it. i should just gave up we have nothing to gain anyways he is nowhere where i am now, he doesn’t feel the same way anyways. he’s just a friend , a mere friend that i could talk to, the one who makes me laugh like an idiot because he just do. i should just open my eyes and live to the reality that monkey face is a possibility than wait for mr. nice smile who is clueless from head to toe.